I think I need to take a break from this website.
I am tired of thinly veiled misandry and the over-saturation of awful things. I am tired. I know not reading them won’t make them go away, but they are starting to poison my relationships. I am tired of aggressively defending my flaws. It is not the world’s responsibility to deal with me. It is my responsibility to find a place in this world and right now I am running from that responsibility by staring at pictures on a blue background.
I need to write poetry, not read it here. I need to find soft things not look at soft pictures. I need to craft a place that is mine and is beautiful and soft but also wild and tough.
I’m going to go hang my tapestry up. I’m going to go re-dye my hair red. I’m going to go find new music. I’m going to write a short story. I’m going to practice my lion’s breath.
I’ll be back in a little while friends.
Keep breathing. Drink lots of water. Hug people. Laugh lightly and openly.